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GOD'S ROMANCE
Monday, February 27, 2006

limying got me.
rant.and i'm brooding all about it again.somehow i keep dreaming about how we were like before.best friends.

you're the saddest thing that happened to me.

when i was lost,you were always there to help me find myself again.but when you're lost now,i want to try to help you,but i can't bring myself to do it.because i know you won't listen.maybe i shouldn't have listened to her.maybe my reprimand was harsh.maybe i shouldn't have jumped to conclusions.

sometimes i just wish we could talk about everything under the sun again.i wish we could compare how many different musical instruments we could play again.i wish you were there to boost my ego again.i wish you were there to share new insights with me.sometimes i wish you were teasing me all over again for another six bloody years.i miss that one time when my brother called you and told you off and you made up your mind not to go to ri.i wish you would send me songs and talk to me about smallville again.i wish i could tell you all about my horrid days.i wish for too many things.

i wish you would cheer me up now.

but its no use looking back isn't it.there's no point in frowning upon what i did and what i could have done.i can't change things.i can't go back in time.i don't wish it to be the greatest regret.(next to my quitting ballet,dammit,all for gb.) i don't blame you.because its not your fault,really.

its all mine.i assume all the responsibilities of my own misery.
just in case i die too early,i want to let you know that i love you lots yeah?

i'll live my own life now.you've already lived your own.

one day i'll fly away :D



Sunday, February 26, 2006

the more you think the less you dream.

my life is monotonous:
monday:school,remedial,bathe,homework,com,sleep.
tuesday:school,remedial,bathe,homework,com,sleep.
wednesday:school,remedial (when there's none,homework),bathe,homework,com,sleep.
thursday:school,remedial,tuition,bathe,homework,com,sleep.
friday:school,homework,tuition,bathe,homework,com,sleep.

saturday:gb,homework,bathe,homework,com,sleep.
sunday:church,homework,bathe,homework,com,sleep.

i have no life.everyday feels like a monday.its a weekly drag that passes quite quickly actually.

when there is nothing to decide,just trip and glide.

one day i'll fly away :D



Friday, February 17, 2006

go ahead.kill me.

one day i'll fly away :D



Sunday, February 12, 2006

facade,masked masquerade.

went cycling today.(:

i'm giving you my dreams,i'm laying down my rights.
i'm giving up my pride
for the promise of new life.



one day i'll fly away :D



Saturday, February 11, 2006

i'm so over it.its been one and a half weeks only!the shortest ever.(:

i need a binging session.badly,madly.
maybe i sleep so much to escape.
dream world is so much more perfect.

one day i'll fly away :D



Tuesday, February 07, 2006

audrey got me back into the christmas mood.
she sang me a carol and wished me merry christmas yesterday(very loudly).

quite late,but its ok.

one day i'll fly away :D



Thursday, February 02, 2006

teach me how to strike up a conversation please.

one day i'll fly away :D



Wednesday, February 01, 2006

letting out what i'm always holding in,gone away but i'm coming back again.

failed my di test!whoo,never felt a greater relief.no need to serve the six months,no need to come back to give drill test,no need to keep my gb uniform,PLAY.(:

but in the real world today,i should be mugging for big fat sickeningly bloody o's.
especially amath.

friendster died on me.

i like being random nowadays. :D

it's an ending without a beginning

one day i'll fly away :D